day 18

I thought I was going to be writing about the cravings hitting today but then I knew I was supposed to go in a different direction.  Life has been way too serious and trudging through the muck that I need to lighten up!!  That is so not me and I can only take a few days of it.  My husband was getting all sad reading my blogs too!  So here we go.......I was having alot of random thoughts about the things I can do now that I am a non-smoker:

1. get a better rate on my car insurance...i don't know why a smoker has to pay a higher rate on car insurance, but they do
2. do less laundry.....I hate laundry and now my laundry has been cut by 90%
3. stand closer to buildings......don't have to worry about the 10 foot rule
4. get plastic surgery......if I want
5. detail my car and have it stay clean for longer than a week.......
6. sing better....
7. not get an offensive littering ticket
8. not burn down a forest......

It is weird to me that I haven't been around one smoker since I quit.  Was I the only smoker left in the world?  I know  there are smokers out there and how will I handle it if I am around someone smoking?  I would hope that HIS grace would surround me.  My favorite coffee talk girl, Adrienna, told me today that GOD was working on her perfectionism and HE said it was an addiction.  That is so true!  I know that I have used that as a cover as much as I used smoking as a cover!  These are our smoke screens we hide behind, all our little addictions we use as coping mechanisms.   This made me have to reflect again about why did I smoke for all those years?  I know that when I got stressed or anything, I would go have a smoke.  Coping mechanism....yes?  The more upset I would get about anything, I would smoke.  Self-reflection is a good thing.  It brings us to a point where we start to love ourselves, that which we are told not to do in our society.  We are taught to be self-centered, but that is not loving ourselves.  We are GODS MASTERPIECE! Think about that...HE loves us so much, why do we not love ourselves? I do love my personality traits....but the whole package?  I'm working on it.  No....take that back.... my LORD and KING, Creator of the Heavens and the Earth is working on it!

so day 18.....did yoga, drank too much coffee, did take some vitamins, took a good nap, had more coffee with A, rest of life?...........being a non-smoker and loving myself!

Loving you all, and thanking you for your support through this journey!  Today is the first day of the rest of your life!  Love yourselves and how special you really are!

Jules