day 16

What a day!  This is by far the worst day I have ever had......ankles are swollen to the point of cankles, can't keep my eyes open and I have a really bad attitude!  Don't have any cravings, which I am praising God for!, because I don't know how well I could handle that too.
So maybe I am having some nicotine withdrawal things going on.  Here is the list I am using as a resource:

NicotineWithdrawal Symptoms/My symptoms

• Cravings to smoke/no
• Irritable, cranky/yes...finally today!!!
• Insomnia/yes
• Fatigue/yes
• Inability to Concentrate/yes
• Headache/no
• Cough/no
• Sore throat/no
• Constipation, gas, stomach pain/no and no more than usual and no
• Dry mouth/no
• Sore tongue and/or gums/no
• Postnasal drip/maybe....I kinda wish I had this one
• Tightness in the chest/no   

I certainly don't see cankles on the list.

Beth Moore was really good today, her heading read "A Christian is held captive by anything that hinders the abundant, effective, spirit-filled life God planned for Him."  I can look at smoking as hindering my life and something that also held me captive.  I am speaking out more about living a half-life.  This has been what most of my life has been about.  I kept most things about myself to myself, because to really let people in you have to reveal yourself to them.  I know the Mighty ONE of the Universe knows all about me, every hair on my head (we all need to read PS 139 everyday!), but I didn't know me.  The half lives.......kept me in a half life with HIM too.  I am learning to trust in my LORD and KING...Ps 62:5-8 says
 ⁵ Let all that I am wait quietly before God,
      for my hope is in him.
 ⁶ He alone is my rock and my salvation,
      my fortress where I will not be shaken.
 ⁷ My victory and honor come from God alone.
      He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me.
 ⁸ O my people, trust in him at all times.
      Pour out your heart to him,
      for God is our refuge.

so..day 16....woke up late for yoga again, saw Dr.Bond, had ION cleanse, got grossed out again, fell asleep folding clothes........rest of life???? trusting the Ruler of the Heavens and Earth will take this from me!

Love to you all, keep praying and thanks for all your support!  I am believing for your rest of life and your day one whatever that may be.  God Bless
Jules