Day 30

Well, it is finally day 30 around here and what a psycho day it has been!  It makes me wonder how much the enemy of my soul is wanting to get me so stressed that I think I need a cigarette?  There was a brief moment around 11:15 that I went to the purse to grab one.....just shook my head and started breathing.  Blood pressure went down and craving went away.  Now its the end of the day and reflecting on things, you can see the little traps that get set, I'm going to call them "my little bumps" because you know how much I love to name things...anyway, I felt like satan was goading me.........peck, peck, peck.  I think clickity clack was trying to come back.  Whatever term you use it is still the enemy of your soul!!  So didn't really get into the WORD either because there was a lot of "pecking" going on.  BIG mistake...HUGE!!  I should have gone there first thing this morning...so when I finally did get to my reading for the day, It is 2 Cor 1:3-4  This is from The Message;

^3-5All praise to the God and Father of our Master, Jesus the Messiah! Father of all mercy! God of 
all healing counsel! He comes alongside us when we go through hard times, and before you know it, he brings us alongside someone else who is going through hard times so that we can be there for that person just as God was there for us. We have plenty of hard times that come from following the Messiah, but no more so than the good times of his healing comfort—we get a full measure of that, too. 
 This was completely my day!!!!  HE is amazing!...everyday on this journey, HE has sent me a word that lifts me up.  Even when I didn't seek HIM today, he was alongside.  Here is Psalm 51:16-17 that spoke to me tonight..this is also from The Message;
^16-17 Going through the motions doesn't please you,
      a flawless performance is nothing to you.
   I learned God-worship 
     when my pride was shattered.
   Heart-shattered lives ready for love
      don't for a moment escape God's notice. 
 So this might be my last post for a while, I really am feeling like this needs to become a.....rest of life??blog.  
I don't know what this rest of life is going to look like and I am excited about that.  The smokescreen is gone and I am ready for what GOD would want me to do.  I love that I can finally see HIS GLORY and I know I have been looking for it my whole life.  Saw glimpses mind you, but to really experience what I have these last thirty days is nothing short of a miracle for me.

so day 30, beat the smoking demons once again!!, saw how precious my life is to HIM, crying like a baby right now, .....rest of life???? In service to MY LORD WHO SAVES and loves me so....

Blessed days to you all, seek GOD in your day 1, and always remember, today is the first day of the rest of life.  Cherish it and cherish yourself!  THE GOD of the universe loves you so much!!  I love you so much too.

 Jules